So I know in the last few posts, have been me basically bitching about work and some of the people I work with. I realized that if I keep going like this, this blog will no longer be about our journey to parenthood for the second time. So for now on I am not going to mention work unless it pertains to me getting knocked up, that bitch Aunt Flo or anything in between. LoL


So what’s new…


Well Friday was probably the worst day of Soraya’s life. I took her to the doctors because she had been exposed to RSV on the 5th of March and her cough had been getting progressively worse. I was worried because she all the sudden developed a fever of 103.5 and was not acting like herself. Poor baby had to get her oxygen monitored via her little toes and she screamed. Then Dr. Kim looked in her ears. The right one was clear, but there was lots of gunk in the left one. So much, she could not get it clear to see if there was an infection in there. :( She said that she probably had an infection and that we would treat it with Amoxicilian for ten days. She listened to her heart and lungs and watched her breathing. Then she sent us to the VA hospital for a chest x-ray. It was terrible. I had to hold her down so they could take a picture of the front of her chest, and the side of her chest. It didn’t take too long but she was not a happy camper after. We went back to the pediatrician and they did the swap for RSV. Now I don’t know what I was expecting, or hoping for but man that was just freaking horrible. Basically what they did was one of the techs and I held Soraya down and the other stuck a q-tip looking thingy up her nose all the way to her sinuses. I felt so bad for her because when they sat her back up her nose started to bleed. /cry… The worst part is I have to take her back today or tomorrow, for a re-check with Dr. Kim.

Soraya’s fever has gone down and she’s starting to play more, which is good but I think she is still really mad at me because she will not just come to me. I pretty much had to corner her to give her a hug and kiss before work. It breaks my heart every single time. I am sure this is not the last time I am going to have to do something that she does not like.

In other news … We are almost done with our first post miscarriage cycle. Aunt Flo should rear her ugly face and take out the trash around the 21st of March. In fact, I think I ovulated this past week. I had lots of gooey EWCM around the 7th. And man did I want to baby dance, but we agreed to wait the recommended 6 months (although I don’t want to wait that long). It sucks and I hate it.

In other random news, I found my friend Ashley Bunch (from junior high) on Facebook tonight. I set her a message, but I feel like a creeper since I sent her the request to be friends, then the message. I didn't even know what to write so I was lame and wrote "Hi! I was thinking about you the other night, and wanted to see how you were doing?" .... So lame right? well then I realized that she might not recognize me by just my face/first name so I sent her a second message with my maiden name... still super lame right? I really miss her. I looked around her profile and found that her mom also has a FB page and I admit it I almost busted into tears when I saw the profile picture of her and Ashley. Sooooo many good memories of all the bad/crazy/wild things we did between 7th grade and 10th grade. Its been so long since we talked I just hope she is willing to be friends again. I mean, I know our falling out/drifting apart was my fault. I'm the one that broke the pact, not her.

Anyways... I rant way too much about everything except what this blog is for..lol

<3 Good Night<3